When someone doesn't understand the reason why you do things, they have every reason to say you're wrong. They make you feel like you are just like everyone else, when you're so much better. Like you are worthless, when you're worth it all, and like you are not what you said you were about and even if that were true based on your actions, why would It matter when no one really knows much about one another- to automatically choose to not go the extra mile for them only because you know that they might be the wrong person just like everyone else who used you. When they've shown you right but your trust issues won't let you accept things for what they really are.
And just maybe
All you need is a source of reassurance. When you think about how shady you've come across to them lately but really, your feelings are getting stronger by the day and you do things that seem wrong to them because you don't want to show them what's really in your heart...and that they're the ones that are always on your mind, and no one else has a hold of such a valuable spot. You have these feelings yet you do show them...the wrong way. Making everything seem as if you are not feeling at all. It's Like not being able to breathe with your mouth and nostrils wide open.
But you aren't the only one that's scared of getting hurt.
That someone seems scared as well...of hearing things just because the ear wants to hear it and not because it's true. Scared, and even when words are being nothing but words, it's hard to believe them for what they are...simply just words. Actions; you've been avoiding them for so long because you'd rather save yourself a heartache...only because you know, that when you fall you fall harder than rocks scratching the ground. And sometimes, the only thing that's loyal to you...
Is the sound of a latent crying heart and the concrete hard ground.