Orange is the New Black
As I was waiting to cross the street today, I froze in the moment. That moment where I caught myself starring heavily and almost dozing off while the orange leaves on the floor just flew in the air and fell on the ground as speeding cars raced through the streets.
I froze... because I felt myself in another world trying to speed through life and get things done like nothing is happening.
But no. Not in this life.
I refuse to act like nothing is going on. I want to feel. I want to cry. I want to scream. Because what's been inside of me has not been letting me do so. I want to be human and curl up when I need to. Even though they say it's the best remedy... to just let it all out. But even when you do you just can't help but feel absolutely hopeless. What can possibly be so damn magical inside of a remedy that it thinks it can just fix you up? When it can't. And the only magical thing about it has to be the abstract thought of it even working in the first place.
Dear orange leaf,
Please let me be you for a moment in time again. And let me feel how you feel. Let me, so peacefully, transform into you for a few seconds, and make me feel like I belong, too. Don't quite know where exactly... but let's start at somewhere.
I froze... because I felt myself in another world trying to speed through life and get things done like nothing is happening.
But no. Not in this life.
I refuse to act like nothing is going on. I want to feel. I want to cry. I want to scream. Because what's been inside of me has not been letting me do so. I want to be human and curl up when I need to. Even though they say it's the best remedy... to just let it all out. But even when you do you just can't help but feel absolutely hopeless. What can possibly be so damn magical inside of a remedy that it thinks it can just fix you up? When it can't. And the only magical thing about it has to be the abstract thought of it even working in the first place.
Dear orange leaf,
Please let me be you for a moment in time again. And let me feel how you feel. Let me, so peacefully, transform into you for a few seconds, and make me feel like I belong, too. Don't quite know where exactly... but let's start at somewhere.