As time goes by, you come to the conclusion that things don't only happen for a reason but that they also happen without one. When you see yourself crying at night, not eating the way you used to, trying to hold yourself together but there is a heavy pressure that's avoiding you from doing so, just like when your throat gets knotted before you're about to burst into tears; that feeling- screaming his name, saying"why you, why you," and all you can do is think about him non-stop. When you see yourself in this position, the first thing that comes to your mind is "why did it have to be you, there was no reason why you should have left... so soon" and not the words, "you left because it happened for a reason." No, it's not how we are built to think and feel, unfortunately.
As time passes we also have a tendency of realizing everything we didn't, but could do. We tend to forget about the 'now' and that it acquires so much importance and attention... until something actually happens- it is not until then that we awake.
To have that person on the phone telling you things like, "I'd like to see you, I'd like to see how you are doing" if you can't stand him/her, or "Hey babe, I'll see you next week when you get down here. Miss you" and that person never shows up, or "I'd like to meet you in person because it's been so many years that I haven't seen you" and that person happens to be a sibling, (and the plans do not work out,) opens your blinded eyes when you are no longer holding that conversation with them anymore. Then you think. Why have I been taking this person for granted, and/or why haven't I enjoyed this person as much as I should have when I had the moment to... Why is it that we realize these things after and not when we have the chance to? What is it, do we really need a punch in the face to wake us the hell up?
In Honor of Our Stars- This Goes To You
This goes to everyone who didn't deserve to go,
To everyone who's shine was seen on their names
To the loved ones that loved once,
But their flags were posted early in the race.
To the father, nephew, and uncle,
To the baby boy to momma' and the biggest brother to baby sis.
To the best friend of a special someone,
Who's love will never descend;
Hallelujiah, glory to you Nelson Jimenez.
To everyone else in the family,
In specific my cousin Jay Arr and my daddy...
You stars will always be remembered,
And never forgotten.
It must be a pleasant surprise,
A party in heaven indeed
To see our family slowly reuniting,
As they protect us and watch us succeed.
To you this goes,
To you all who have experienced such a burden
Just know you are not alone and nothing ever happens with and without
a purpose.
Rest In Peace, As we will be at peace right with you both.
As time passes we also have a tendency of realizing everything we didn't, but could do. We tend to forget about the 'now' and that it acquires so much importance and attention... until something actually happens- it is not until then that we awake.
To have that person on the phone telling you things like, "I'd like to see you, I'd like to see how you are doing" if you can't stand him/her, or "Hey babe, I'll see you next week when you get down here. Miss you" and that person never shows up, or "I'd like to meet you in person because it's been so many years that I haven't seen you" and that person happens to be a sibling, (and the plans do not work out,) opens your blinded eyes when you are no longer holding that conversation with them anymore. Then you think. Why have I been taking this person for granted, and/or why haven't I enjoyed this person as much as I should have when I had the moment to... Why is it that we realize these things after and not when we have the chance to? What is it, do we really need a punch in the face to wake us the hell up?
In Honor of Our Stars- This Goes To You
This goes to everyone who didn't deserve to go,
To everyone who's shine was seen on their names
To the loved ones that loved once,
But their flags were posted early in the race.
To the father, nephew, and uncle,
To the baby boy to momma' and the biggest brother to baby sis.
To the best friend of a special someone,
Who's love will never descend;
Hallelujiah, glory to you Nelson Jimenez.
To everyone else in the family,
In specific my cousin Jay Arr and my daddy...
You stars will always be remembered,
And never forgotten.
It must be a pleasant surprise,
A party in heaven indeed
To see our family slowly reuniting,
As they protect us and watch us succeed.
To you this goes,
To you all who have experienced such a burden
Just know you are not alone and nothing ever happens with and without
a purpose.
Rest In Peace, As we will be at peace right with you both.